Please help me rebuild my life and regain my independence while I’m young enough to enjoy it: https://www.gofundme.com/MartinsPI
I would be very grateful if you would spread the word of this and I would like this to get around as far as possible. I know many other people have bad situations but yet others have homes of their own and are settled in life; I wasn’t so lucky. This dammed Government got things wrong even by its own standards and have let me down time and again.
As for going public with some of my inner demons, as I intend to in due course, it’s about time somebody did. We, those with Asperger Syndrome, are the forgotten of god. Many of us are nearly normal, but not normal enough to get by nor get help until things really go wrong.
Some of you will have seen my Facebook and Twitter posts of birds or cats or science and think I’m doing OK. Well, I’m not. I put on a brave face because I must try to survive and have as much of a life as I can. You don’t know the mental hell I have every day because I am shy about such things. But I am fed up with the lack of understanding from the world and it’s about time somebody talked about it.
What happened to me is like spending most of my life in prison for a crime I didn’t commit and then being acquitted, but with no compensation money to rebuild with. I know somebody at a former workplace who lost his house, job, wife, kids, but he said to me that he had been an alcoholic and it was in some way a strange comfort that he only had himself to blame.
Well I didn’t ask to be disabled. I didn’t ask for my disability to seem like other things that were my fault because it wasn’t understood. I didn’t ask for it to wreck my career and destroy my life. I didn’t ask for it to be relatively obscure.
To the general public, we’re an obscure and expendable minority at best and evil Machiavellian computer hackers at worst. To the general public, most of us are just “loonies, weirdos and freaks”.
Many of us don’t even get as far as a career or life to lose, as even those diagnosed as children get nowhere near the help they should get. The Government is heartless, much of the medical profession is ignorant and with few exceptions, the DWP and its contractors couldn’t organise a fire in a blast furnace.
So please spare a moment to read my story on GoFundMe and also spare a thought for the thousands of others like me who are forgotten by the media except as saddos and nutters.
You wouldn’t believe how many of us, and this is official, are so traumatised that they are content to sit back quietly and accept a second-class citizenship, on a low salary if they aren’t on the dole, live with relatives or in desperate rented accommodation, fade quietly away on a state pension and die in anonymity.
Well damn it, I’m not content.
I am ANGRY at what happened to me. I am ANGRY that the Government has let me down at every turn. I am ANGRY that there is no help for me to get my life back before I am too old to enjoy it. I am ANGRY that to find a compatible partner will probably cost £30+ per month via online dating. I am ANGRY that many others like me haven’t even got at least the half a life that I have. I am ANGRY that the Government couldn’t care less about them either.
So after all that, if you are still reading this, thanks for listening. And if you sympathise, please share this far and wide on social media. It’s about time somebody spoke up for us and it might as well be me.
Oh yes, and I will keep posting photos of birds and wildlife on Facebook when I have calmed down; but just remember, I have to put on a brave face and focus on something I enjoy because sometimes I despair of a future of living, but not having a life.